there is no more for us. it was destroyed so many times through so many choices. consciously choosing and discussing that we are done. then grasping. fighting. frustrated. in love. not feeling good.
i will learn to take care of me. i am remorseful of the pain. i remember all the good. broken down. spiraling out.
all of the dreams to be happy together. it will not work based on how hard you try. it will work based on us as people. i am sorry for the pain. I am full of hurt and sadness. we used to pulse together. i don’t know where that went. searching for my happiness and self. loss of content.
i will work on choice. i will work on respect. acceptance. i will learn a lot. I will cherish what we had forever. it is important to me. i am sorry for the pain. i am sorry for the loss. i will keep the letters. i will take what was good. i will not lose myself. i will grow.
stumbling, reaching, falling. lost. i thought i came to be happy with you. i lost myself in that. you are strong. you don’t need me. you don’t want me. you felt the loss for a while now. now it is time for anger and hate. to shed my toxic heart. it used to be so natural. i have never experienced that passion and togetherness. it got lost in hurt and fickle minds. the effort was shifting. never on the same page. growing and developing. priorities change. i will learn to be patient. focus on intuition and be strong in my choice.